Wellll......

Well, after some talking, Zac and I decided it would probably be best if we both dated around a little bit...considering we both haven't dated all that much.
We'll just take a couple months, date other people a bit, and see how things are going.
Although I knew it was something we had to do, I didn't like the thought of it. I didn't want to. I didn't know what do to about it. And, I don't know what to do now.
To be completely honest, it was a lot harder of a conversation for me than I thought it was going to be. I keep telling myself it had to happen. It's for the best. It'll be okay.
What's the worst that can happen? We both find someone else? Better to find that now than 15 years down the road, eh? And the best? We realize it's right. Either way, it's good. And it's something we've got to know.
I just need now to find something to occupy my mind. I really can't stop thinking about it. I don't know what to do.
I feel lame acting like this, I really do. But I can't help it.
I'll just keep telling myself I'll get over it, everything will be okay, it's for the best, it had to happen, what's done is done, ... and maybe if I tell myself that enough, I'll believe it...