BIG...or small?

Lately, I just get this feeling that I have to do something. Something big. Like I have the potential to, and I need to, but don't know how or what. Just thinking about it makes me feel so small. It's hard to write, because I don't know how to describe it all, but I know I have to do something. I get in this "depressed?" mood when I don't know how or what to do. I feel like I have this BIG something inside of me, waiting to get out, but I can't let it out. I get confused by it, because how much can a 17 year old do? Not much, that's what. But I DO know, if I try hard enough, I CAN do something big. The problem is just how. I need to just set aside some time to sit and think. Ponder. Pray. And just see what it is that I am supposed to do. I've thought about it a little (not enough yet) and need to do more. I've always had this urge to be something influential, don't know what exactly, just somehow helping people. That's part of the reason why I decided to be some sort of a counselor. But I also feel that's not big enough.

When I think about it, and see everyone around me, I feel so small. There are so many people in this world, how can I make a difference? But yet, I can. Some how. Some way. I wish I could just know, because I don't know how to find out. I've tried, but I need to try more. And I will.