I. HATE. DECISIONS.
I wish I could leave it at that, but I know I'll look back on this someday and wish I would have explained more. AND I figure you all would probably like to know too..
Meh.. :P
First off, I looked at a house across the street from Micah yesterday, to possibly think about buying it and getting some roommates to live with me... BIG DECISION RIGHT THERE. I don't know..I think it'd be super fun, but at the same time..I feel too young for stuff like that. But then again, I am pretty much 19..but hmmph. I don't know... It's a BIG commitment and a decision that will affect the rest of my life. I pretty much spend my work day yesterday making a pro/con list of my choices, and it weighed out pretty equally.
Next, dating. :P This whole dating game..I don't like it. Keep in mind I hadn't (before like 2 weeks ago) gone on a date since Novemberish..and before that was like May. So it's been a while. Then this guy from institute asks me out. Then again. And now I feel...in a jam? There's nothing wrong with this guy..he's a great guy. Just not for me, I don't feel "right" about it. BUT, I think he may like me a lot more. Which is where I am stuck. I don't want to be mean, I don't want to lead him on, I don't want to keep dating him. I gotta figure out something..quick. Any ideas?? From ANYONE out there???
THEN, to make it a little more weird and random (but hey, what's NOT weird and random?) a RM from my old ward asked me out for tonight..to go institute and get ice cream. Which sounds fun, and I'm excited. But seriously, what happened to my "one random date every 5 months" streak?
And of course, there's me--who spends WAY too much time thinking about things that shouldn't matter so much. I have better things I should be worrying about...(finals due soon...) but I just can't focus on that right now. My life just seriously turned completely around within the last 2 weeks, and everything is different..
Let's hope my mind survives this one! haha ;)
GIRL. I've been around the block a time or 2 with those RMs. Where they're seriously the nicest guy but you just know they're not the guy for you? Drop him :) It's the 2 date max rule! Going on the second date is ok because you don't want to be mean, but date 3 is just leading him on. Then it gets even more complicated because he thinks you've got to like him if you said yes to 3 dates! Your blog is very deja vu for me because I remember being in the same pickle with guys like that. But you know what you want - I'm sure you'll figure out how to let him down easy. And good luck with the RM from your old ward ;)
ReplyDeleteOh, Kami. I have to comment as I am kind of laughing right now! You sound like your mother here. She had to fight off the boys too. Did she ever tell you about Paul? heehee. You are too sweet but I agree with Lauren, to not lead them on too long. Dating is supposed to be fun and not torture! haha.
ReplyDeleteMoving out is a good thing in a lot of ways. I moved into an apartment with Tracy at about your same age and then it helped me feel ready and more prepared to transfer to BYU and not be so scaredy cat! As for the house....that is a BIG decision. Just do what YOU think is best with your money. You will be wise. Follow your heart and mind. Don't let others pressure your decisions. Just know you have lots of us that are watching out/supporting you and we are here for you always. Just a text away! :<) Hang in there.