No Words To Describe

First off, on a good note, we had our first night at our new house last night, and all went good! I got up at 5 this morning to drive Porter to A-Hour again. Wowza. But its kinda nice that I get time to do my homework and such ;)

Now, the part where there's no words to describe....

I was talking after school with Bryndee and Briana (like I always do), about how last year we had this whole "Harry Potter" thing. There was a big drama with my friends, and each person perfectly fit the role of a Harry Potter character. We were talking about that, and we were just reminiscing about all the problems. Then, an epiphany came. The whole time we thought Zach was the cause of the drama, and it was all his fault, but today we realized that even through the whole fight, Buh and Zach still wrote each other letters. EVERYDAY. We figured that Buh started all the drama, but blamed it on Zach so we would still be her friend. She now is "back with Zach" or whatever, but never tells us. Its hard to explain in writing the whole shpiel, but there are no words to describe my feeling. It's partly that I feel used because I was lied to. I feel like a jerk for blaming Zach the whole time and "hating" him. I feel like an idiot for falling for it. I feel frustrated because I don't know if this whole thing is certain. I feel responsible to tell other people, but I don't want to cause more problems. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to think.... I just gotta remember to not judge, and that it all actually doesn't REALLY matter.....